Day 1/30
Day 1 - Your sexual orientation or gender identity. Be creative in your definition
This is a picture of what my alphabet soup told me today.
Well, what it would have told me if my life were a contrived movie.
As it were, I am genderqueer, and I am attracted to women. The attraction is physical, criticize me as you will, so I would not say I’m attracted to anyone who identifies as a woman. I am attracted to that sex.
Being genderqueer, so far as I can tell, is a new thing to think about, and I find it can be somewhat difficult. As I don’t identify as a man or a woman, people aren’t really sure of what to do with me when we are hanging out. There are some parts of my body that I am happy with, and others that I am not. But none of this is to say that I want to be specifically a man or a woman.
Sometimes I think that perhaps I will simply choose and gender and thereby I will find my niche, but I rather enjoy androgyny. A friend of mine once described me as “the most human person she had ever met.” I liked the idea. While I cannot change my race or ethnic origin, I can break down some societal barriers in my person, even if it is a controversial thing at this time.
It can be lonely, and it can be transcendental. Sometimes girls don’t understand and want to treat me as though I am only a girlfriend, when I feel that I am something different. It is a difficult thing to explain, because there isn’t a gender-neutral pronoun that I’m aware of, and I am not a proponent of subject-pronoun disagreement (they, them). If anyone has a suggestion of how to get around that, please post it.
